focus in life
I think it is important for me to start out this blog being honest. I am a Christian, a firm believer that Jesus has saved me. I don’t hide it and I am not embaressed about it. So majority of my blog, and my posts are probably going to be related to how I am feeling about my relationship with him.
I have not always been a Christian, most people don’t realise that when they meet me. I come from a non-christian family. My parents are atheists. So this was not something that I was brainwashed into, or that I just did not know how life was without God. I made the choice myself which I think is really important to understanding me and my relationship with him.
It took a long time for me to come to this decision and to commit to this style of life. I had been attending church for 5 years and it only really hit me the importance of it last year. So really I have been saved for almost a year now :). I knew all the facts and the knowledge behind Christianity, I understood the concepts. What I had not understood was the need for my life to change, to act in a way that was pleasing to God. I got the facts, but I did not fully understand the message.
This is hard for me to admit to my Christian friends, as they have believed for so long that I was a Christian all this time. I went through the motions, I did all the “Christian” things such as getting confirmed, yet it did not mean anything. I was doing it for the approval of others not for the glory of God.
So this is what I am going to be working on this year, focusing on God. Focusing on God and not myself.
new to this.
This is my first time ever having something anything like this. I guess I want to use it as a storage area, for my thoughts. Somewhere to place them all down. I am hoping it will help me consider my life, and consider what I am doing more carefully. By having an actual place to write it all down makes everything more realistic.
The first thing that I want to write is; I will soon be lonely.
All my closest friends are going travelling this year, whilst I start university. I am happy for them and know that they are having an amazing time. It does however leave me feeling a bit left behind.
The first of these friends leaves in just over a month. I do not know how I will cope without her here. The joke that is running about it is that I will put on weight :P. Instead of venting my problems to my friends I will have to eat to compensate. Hoping that this will not happen.
So I think this tumblr is mainly going to be my way of getting through the next few months. Without them, and without the support network that I am used to relying on so heavily.